The problem with good intentions is that when the real intention comes out - and it always will - then you're left defending and explaining your so-called good intention.
Instead of saying, "I will not go visit him while I'm there! Screw him!"
Say, "I want to stay away from him, but in all likely hood, I'll end up visiting him."
Instead of, "Fuck it! He can forget about seeing or contacting me again!"
Say, "I'm pissed he's not gotten in touch, but I'll probably forgive him if he gets in touch and grovels a little."
Instead of, "I'm never eating carbs again!"
Say, "There's a high chance that banana bread is going into my mouth."
You know how many arguments we have defending our actions because of some level of shame we feel for going back on what we so proudly declared? Our 'good intentions'. If we were just honest with ourselves, it would be easier. Although being honest with ourselves just shows us that we're human and as humans we can be 'weak'.
Or at least that's what we perceive as weakness.
I know sometimes we say that because we want to convince ourselves more than anyone else. But step one - as they say in AA - is admitting that you have a problem. Or admitting that there's a chance you might do something. Then you can look out for it and take preventative measures to stop it.
If you really don't want to eat cake, admit that you might eat it if it's there so you don't bother to buy it at all, instead of saying you won't eat it even if it's in your face, buy it, end up eating it and then regret it later.
Ok, this post might just be me rambling in the early morning. Does it even make any sense? Do you relate to this? Talk to me.